altered perception

life is hard/ wierd. you think you know things. life is funny and fake. I am the disadvantaged because I don't want to be fake and at the same time it's hard to be influenced by other substances.... which is what makes my world go 'round right now. (vodka) The truth seems to be far and few between when you are living the life that I have. Spell check seems so relevant and even ideal but in my head- REALITY prevails and I am trying to be real and share MY experience. Sometimes I like to see the truth through blurry vision after a couple shots.